After struggling with some personal issues, Nollywood actress Gloria Mba, has said she is never giving up on herself again irrespective of what life throws at her.
The single mother of one, who recently returned to the screen after a while, shared her struggle in a statement which she posted on her Facebook page.
She wrote: “Dear self, I have watched you suffer for many years. You have worked hard. You have carried an enormous weight of responsibility…for relationships, finances, family, home and career. You have strived to do the best you could, always looking for ways to improve and please.
You have said “yes” when you should have said “no”. You have taken care of others when you should have taken care of yourself. You have wanted to look good and be good and do good. But when the burden became too much, fatigue-emotional, and physical has brought you to your knees.
She continued, “You have felt alone and hopeless, wondering what happened to the fairy tale life of your dreams. And then you have forced yourself to get up and do it over again. And at some point you have simply given up. You have endured much. I have felt the pain of your broken heart. I have known your terror from being abandoned, neglected, and abused-especially by yourself.
The other part of the letter also talked about reasoning with self-esteem and promising not to let anything make her feel worthless again. “I am so sorry for your suffering. The immediate pleasure and comfort of food has insulated you from it, but the effects are fleeting. In the wake of overeating, the quilt, shame, regret, and weight insidiously disintegrate your self-esteem and your experience of life.
“Dear self, please forgive me for what you have been or done and for what you have not done. Please believe how precious and wonderful you are. Others see it even if you don’t. You are a gift to the world, and your withholding the gift by hiding behind the insulation is selfish!
The actress, while concluding the piece promised to see the reason to boost her self-esteem, making use of it diligently, and to love herself more.